My Life With Pectus Excavatum
I have knowingly had pectus excavatum since I was 13. When I was growing up I was always told that it was just me and there was actually nothing wrong. When I was 13 we didn't have the internet at home and it wasn't anywhere near as big anyway. It was until I was 18 that I found out the name of what I had. I remember that day as it gave me some hope that I might be able to fix it, something I had only ever dreamed of.
There is no doubt that growing up through my teens and twenties my confidence has always been held back by my PE. I always wonder if I didn't have PE how different my life would be right now. But there comes a point where you can't keep thinking what if. In the last 3 years my confidence has got better that it ever has been. It still can be shot down in an instant if I am ever in a situation where I have to take my top off when I am not aware there might be a situation where I have to take my top off. If I go on holiday abroad I will take my top off on the beach, I am not completely confident but now have the confidence to think that I am not hiding on holiday. In the changing room at the gym I will have shower and not care that people will see my chest.
It has always felt like people stare, whether that's actually what happens I don't know. I would love to know what it would be like to live life without PE. I think I would take my top off so much, I know there are much worse things out there to have but it still makes you think why me. But to look at it another way, out of all the people on this planet the percentage that has PE is tiny, so I guess we are unique!
This story may be a bit disjointed but hopefully someone out there can relate to the way it makes you feel sometimes.
Written By Matt
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